tiring Friday..

I got big black eyes today because I woke up at 6am:

- for my little darling milk gulping.
- to ensure little missy is covering with quilt
- to spot-checking on my maid and noticed she’s been waking up late for her work. Again, I chided her on that.
- to check on Stew condition. He’s been not feeling well since Wednesday and was sleeping at kiddos Playing Room.
- to watering my plants

Thought of going back for a nap afterward but can’t. My mind keep turning with nonsense, my body was keep tossing. So, I ended to wake up… go for a morning bath. Gosh, it was so damn cold despite I’m having a heater. I wonder how long I never had such freezy bath. Though it should be very refreshing after bath, but still I feel so sleepy and tiring…

I’m about to lost control on my eyelid but doze off at my workstation.

Home-cooked meals, baby Asparagus wrap

As committed to stew, I tried to have more home-cook meals on weekend. Well, it’s simply a simple dish. On Saturday, I cooked Lotus Roots soup since both Gen-X need soup for their meal, mix vegetable stir-fries with fresh scallops and this, with my own recipe.

baby Asparagus wrap

It's not often to find fresh scallops at wet market. But it happened to have on that day and surprisingly that it's not expensive as thought.... RM6.00 for 500g. I put half of it on Gen-x lunch,as scallops porridge. It tasted so fresh and sweet.

My ever great satisfaction is looking at them, enjoying the meal that I prepared for them...Imagine, I need to wake up early morning on my rest day and rush to market for their meals preparation. You know, I never have to do this before. Now that I know, why my mom so in needs of going wet market everyday... after all, she just want to prepare a meal for her family.

the relationship...

When you in a down mood, you’ll tend to miss your family very much. Yeah, I missed my mom, my siblings, my friends, my life in KL so much…

I opened up my laptop files that contains of photos with my family, my kiddos, I just noticed how time really flies. From married to newborn of Xandria, then added-in of Xavier … You know, sometimes I just find myself hard to believe that I’m a mother of two by now.

(front) Chen Jin, Xavier... (behind) Xandria, Jia Xin

I love this photo. Both sis and I got a pair of children... and I wonder how they'll look like 20 years later.

I got extra for an investment

Though the market condition has much recover by now, I should plan for my investment since I’ve got the bonus on February. Should I go for share or to buy gold coins for my extra monies investment? Many said, investment on gold coins is rather secure, faster and safer compared to share. I’m not an expert on it, probably I need to go for an investment which has an expert to provide me their professionalism guides on my investment. With it, I wish my investment would have double return.

I always believe, a well-planed investment will have a great return. Don’t you agreed?

what choice do i have?

Thanks for all your comment and concerns. I truly understand that other than to talk to him, I had no alternatives. I can’t just leave my children and runaway, I can’t pretend that he is not part of the family, I can’talk bad about him in front of kiddos........ and they are thousand of obligations that don’t allow me to act as I wish.

We had a talk eventually… (guess that’s the only choice I had) but no solution was found. Just that I hope he will commit on what he promised.

I felt hurt...

I’m in a very down mood today. Not because I’ve to work when others are in holiday but … it’s something unhappily happened last night. It’s not something serious but it hurt and it has hurts me deeply.

Being to stay 300km away from my family, I do expect more concern from Stew. I do expect him to be more thoughtful than usual. I do hope he can be with me anytime, anywhere when I’m in needs of him. But I was so wrong for having such thoughts. If a man born without a thoughtful heart, eventually he will never be like that.

As for what had happened last night, I scrolled down my phone listing as thought of seeking help from others. Sad enough…. no one could help, not even a number that I can ever call to. I was so helpless that moment, my eye was almost covering by tears but I told myself to be tough. I had to find the solution myself and my children were waiting for me.

When there is a wish, there is a will. Problem has been solved but my relationship with Stew….. I don't wish to talk to him, I don't even want to have a good talk either. Because ........... I felt hurt.

our CNY...

I just can’t imagine it has almost come to the end of February and so as CNY. The ONE-week holiday flew away like a clip of eye. We had a great time in KL…eventually, it’s a busy and tiring days with outing and visiting.

After returning to JB, I was still busy with my work and also preparation for the praying on 8th Day of CNY. The fireworks were extremely terrible on that night for about 2 hours. The worst was the air really been polluted with haze due to heavy fireworks. Stew got a very bad sensitive nose after that. I was indeed worried if Xandria and Xavier would be awakening by the fireworks but they didn’t. Probably too tired of traveling and both were sleep tight that night. It’s was a very merry celebration in JB that night.

Just before the end of celebration, wishing all you a...

Prosperous Lunar New Year, Gong Xi Fa Cai…

CNY coming soon...

Time flies extremely fast until I’ve lost count on CNY preparation. Yeah, no much of CNY cookies and decoration been done for my newly home as we will be celebrating CNY in KL for entire week.

However I’ve done something out of my usual practice. I’ve bought quite a lot greenery plant placed at my house and office. Probably due to influence by my colleagues who are super fancy on flower, plant. Be frankly, I like my current workstation. So comfy when you have something ‘Green’ which you can take a look at.

nice bor??

About the Gen-X, they have been taking care by my cousin in-law aka Pak Mou (伯母) since mom went back to KL. I was told that both have behaved pretty well especially Xandria. She can be independent on her stuff like afternoon nap, going to potty herself and so on. I got surprised for that.

About myself, remain that busy like a mad women everyday. From 6am morning, I got to spot check on the maid for house chores, then preparation on Gen-X stuff to bring to their Pak Mou house. Followed by, myself with preparation to work. Gosh, imagine I sleep late but got to wake up early and yet, Xavier still needs on his night feeding at 2am. I hope he can wean on the night feeding soon.

Today will be my last working day until CNY. Nothing much to say but to wish you all,

GONG HEI FATT CHOY…