eventful weekend...

I had a great time in KL over the weekend, indeed it’s a long weekend for us. I’ve taken 2 days because of Stew, who has something to do in Ipoh on Monday. So, we decided to stay in KL until Tuesday. It was a tiring trip to us where we’ve been going here and there.

Xandria was so happy by having her peer cousins to play with, while Xavier being loves by everyone for his cheeky and funky smile. All his requests being fulfilled especially when he was with his paternal grandpa & grandma.

We went to KL Bird Park on Sunday (click HERE for more photos) and the kiddos were so happy looking at the birds. For myself, no much of ‘ME’ time but I love seeing kiddos with their happy face all the time. Guess that is what most mommies hope for.

spot the 'mat salleh' on the right? His mommy requested to take photo with them...but his like so unwilling for it!!!

10 years relationship, 3 years of....

In year 1999, I got to know him from a close friend’s birthday party. We became a very good friend since then. 2 years later, we got attach to each other after realized that our relation is rather just a friendship. After a long 6 years of hard relationship, he proposed to me … and we finally tight up the knot in year 2007.

And now, it has been 3 years since we got married. For the past 3 years, I seem have no much achievement in life except having 2 VIP, Xandria & Xavier. Life isn’t that good when you know it’s going to very tough ahead and more preparation needed.

I can't assure for a long lasting relationship but I do pray GOD for it...

tiring Friday..

I got big black eyes today because I woke up at 6am:

- for my little darling milk gulping.
- to ensure little missy is covering with quilt
- to spot-checking on my maid and noticed she’s been waking up late for her work. Again, I chided her on that.
- to check on Stew condition. He’s been not feeling well since Wednesday and was sleeping at kiddos Playing Room.
- to watering my plants

Thought of going back for a nap afterward but can’t. My mind keep turning with nonsense, my body was keep tossing. So, I ended to wake up… go for a morning bath. Gosh, it was so damn cold despite I’m having a heater. I wonder how long I never had such freezy bath. Though it should be very refreshing after bath, but still I feel so sleepy and tiring…

I’m about to lost control on my eyelid but doze off at my workstation.

Home-cooked meals, baby Asparagus wrap

As committed to stew, I tried to have more home-cook meals on weekend. Well, it’s simply a simple dish. On Saturday, I cooked Lotus Roots soup since both Gen-X need soup for their meal, mix vegetable stir-fries with fresh scallops and this, with my own recipe.

baby Asparagus wrap

It's not often to find fresh scallops at wet market. But it happened to have on that day and surprisingly that it's not expensive as thought.... RM6.00 for 500g. I put half of it on Gen-x lunch,as scallops porridge. It tasted so fresh and sweet.

My ever great satisfaction is looking at them, enjoying the meal that I prepared for them...Imagine, I need to wake up early morning on my rest day and rush to market for their meals preparation. You know, I never have to do this before. Now that I know, why my mom so in needs of going wet market everyday... after all, she just want to prepare a meal for her family.

the relationship...

When you in a down mood, you’ll tend to miss your family very much. Yeah, I missed my mom, my siblings, my friends, my life in KL so much…

I opened up my laptop files that contains of photos with my family, my kiddos, I just noticed how time really flies. From married to newborn of Xandria, then added-in of Xavier … You know, sometimes I just find myself hard to believe that I’m a mother of two by now.

(front) Chen Jin, Xavier... (behind) Xandria, Jia Xin

I love this photo. Both sis and I got a pair of children... and I wonder how they'll look like 20 years later.

I got extra for an investment

Though the market condition has much recover by now, I should plan for my investment since I’ve got the bonus on February. Should I go for share or to buy gold coins for my extra monies investment? Many said, investment on gold coins is rather secure, faster and safer compared to share. I’m not an expert on it, probably I need to go for an investment which has an expert to provide me their professionalism guides on my investment. With it, I wish my investment would have double return.

I always believe, a well-planed investment will have a great return. Don’t you agreed?

what choice do i have?

Thanks for all your comment and concerns. I truly understand that other than to talk to him, I had no alternatives. I can’t just leave my children and runaway, I can’t pretend that he is not part of the family, I can’talk bad about him in front of kiddos........ and they are thousand of obligations that don’t allow me to act as I wish.

We had a talk eventually… (guess that’s the only choice I had) but no solution was found. Just that I hope he will commit on what he promised.

I felt hurt...

I’m in a very down mood today. Not because I’ve to work when others are in holiday but … it’s something unhappily happened last night. It’s not something serious but it hurt and it has hurts me deeply.

Being to stay 300km away from my family, I do expect more concern from Stew. I do expect him to be more thoughtful than usual. I do hope he can be with me anytime, anywhere when I’m in needs of him. But I was so wrong for having such thoughts. If a man born without a thoughtful heart, eventually he will never be like that.

As for what had happened last night, I scrolled down my phone listing as thought of seeking help from others. Sad enough…. no one could help, not even a number that I can ever call to. I was so helpless that moment, my eye was almost covering by tears but I told myself to be tough. I had to find the solution myself and my children were waiting for me.

When there is a wish, there is a will. Problem has been solved but my relationship with Stew….. I don't wish to talk to him, I don't even want to have a good talk either. Because ........... I felt hurt.